Spending time enjoying the ideas of what could be is a much better use of your mind than worrying or feeling guilty about what is. Your mind or the subject of your thoughts is completely under your control even though you have allowed external sources to high jack your thought habits.
Every thing you dream of having or doing or being is for the sole purpose of feeling good or better. Just dreaming about those things with the hope, belief or knowing that it can be will make you feel better in this very moment. In the feeling better in this very moment you have already accomplished part of your dream. The rest must follow if you just continue to feel that way.
Enjoy your amazing ability to manifest your dreams for the fun of it, for the sake of those you love, and for all that is because we are all connected.